Category: Personal, Podcast, Racism, Mental Health, Coronavirus

Welcome back to day 2 of Codependency….

Now that we are UNconsciously in a trauma bond on the Island of Save and Rescue..

It’s time to kick it up a notch! We now enter Phase 2 of “Prove your Love for Me”. This phase consists of TESTS! Everyone likes a good test, right? Don’t worry the TESTS will start out as little pebbles then become boulders!! And once you have passed all my inner child’s tests then we do something called RAISE THE BAR.

Sigh…..well now you’ve passed all the unconscious tests, it quiet, no chaos…which guess what? Scares us because we’ve never known what it feels like to be safe.

So now what? I KNOW….we’ll become workaholics! Now why in the world would we do this? Oh that’s right…to AVOID the deep inner sadness and unworthiness we feel. Work provides us with rewards! Work is where we are near perfect! Plus all of our friends are there!! Woo hoo! It’s like a huge playground of FIGHT or FLIGHT. We’ll be so busy we won’t have time to think about all those uncomfortable feelings.

Fast forward 5 years later….my inner child and myself can’t figure out why we are so burned out and unhappy…..mmmmm.

And this concludes Codependency Theatre.

Join us tomorrow for a Special Thanksgiving Edition of “Why don’t we have sex anymore?” (Inner child shrugs)

Summary

In this episode I interview my therapist friend Sandy, LPC who blew my mind with her poetic Facebook posts about the effects of childhood trauma on the body, importance of self-protection (two little words saying N-O), and much more. I am excited to venture into an interview style podcast so I, along with others, can get the healing tools for our individual needs.  — This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/howcoronavirussavedmylife/support

Summary

Realizing I have been seeking external validation because I did not feel worthy. I also could not a find a definition of worthy or worthiness that I could agree with. This by far has been my favorite episode to record because I had one of the most powerful breakthroughs which led to me discovering I am worthy of it all. WE ARE WORTHY OF IT ALL. 

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Summary of Episode 12: the validation of How Coronavirus Saved my Life Podcast

Plot twist: it wasn’t all my ex husband’s fault. Sometime we think we have all the facts of how someone, especially your spouse, is feeling. The thing is –we have no clue. Spouses can make a lot of assumptions about the other is feeling and what they are think if communication is lacking. As well as feeling safe to share your feelings. I expected my husband to improve his “faults” and things I was lacking from him. But not once did I ask him what he thought I needed to improve on or what he was lacking from me. We really never know what someone is thinking. And BTW—men usually aren’t thinking about much per my male friends.

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Summary

I planned on making this my final episode. The universe had different plans for me and my healing. Thank you to my friends, families, strangers on the street, co-workers for your support. I appreciate people sharing their own stories as well. We learn from each other. Sharing our stories is where love is found. 

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